Weird.....

Have you ever been in a room with a bunch of people you don't know, and then almost forced to interact with them? Now imagine that just your among your family. It is just the weirdest feeling. Added along with that there is that quite as well. Nobody is arguing, everyone is interacting with each other. It is a calm before the storm, type atmosphere. This puts me in an odd spot as I do not know what is going on with everyone else? It is as though everyone just did not want to be among each other. What I possibly think what is happening is, people are going there own ways. That's a sad fact.

Sizes

Family….. Today I really learned how BIG that word can be. LITTLE issues can become vast canyons, and your BIG issues can become the SMALLEST grain. If you’re not sure what I mean here is a better explanation. One TINY issue can grow into an OVERSIZED issue. Like when you leave your socks in the bed and almost end up getting divorced because of it. That LITTLE issue just became way too HUGE. At times when you have a BIG issue that needs A LOT of attention, the SMALLEST amount of people even recognizes it.
Can it just be human nature, to analyze actions of others and grade them based on your own moral rules? If so, is this done subconsciously?

getting ready to watch the

getting ready to watch the harry potter movie. I think harry potter is everyone hidden pleasure. well lets see how this movie is

How far would family go

How far would family go for you?

She is too cute

This is my cousin.

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This is my cousin.

Jobs

I was reading a book my teacher recommended to me and it got me thinking. Currently there is a high demand for me to get a job. I am trying and it is very hard to do so. My theory on the selection process around this time is choosing the ones that barely fit the position with the least experience and hire them. Since I’ve had myself a few jobs already my experience has gone up. I’ve gotten already four denial messages saying I was over qualified. I got to thinking. In the workplace ultimately there is only one way up. Say I’m working for ABC Company as a technician. I could possibly move my way up in the company. I would then complete the process. We would be a well financial stable family. My question is, is always when your moving up in a company this means more responsibility. If at times there is already a conflict with a situation with work and family what purpose would moving up in that company do if here is no family to support? Now there is where I have reached my dilemma. By all means my family is everything. Now I’m stuck in a position were its hard to get a job right now and making money now. I’ve taken all the necessary steps to secure us for now. My only option to hopefully resolve this issue was to go to school and one were I could complete my degree in a quick period of time.
First off I just want everyone to know that my family is of the up most importance to me. I will do anything it takes to protect and stabilize this family.

Calm in the Chaos

Well I woke up around 8:30 am today. Cristy, my wife, was brining Leah, my daughter, into the room with me. She is growing up so fast. She was walking around the bed. We were all very lazy to get up this morning. Cristy reminded me that I was going to go walking with her at Album Park. Ughhh…… I know I’m getting big but I can deal with it. So in my opinion, I should be allowed to sleep my lazy ass in. Just to please Cristy I got up and we went walking. Prior to walking we dropped off Leah with my mom. We only walked around Album Park once because Cristy said that her legs were getting tired. We thought it was because we kind of took a break from walking for a while. After that we went back home to shower. We got home and Cristy right away took a shower. She hates it when she smells like sweat. Its funny how she complains about it, but it’s cute.
Throughout the day my stomach was hurting. Now my stomach has been hurting for a long time now. Every morning I wake up wanting to throw up. It feels like I have a really bad hangover. Now sometimes I am able to just ignore it and that sometimes helps me cope with that.
Now later in the day my mom dropped off Leah. She showed up with my sister, Joanna. We took Leah in and just sat around in our room. Now today for me was the first day of two classes. So I logged in online a couple of times to check. Also my Enrollment counselor for the school called me just to guide me though the first day of class. A boring conversation but his job I guess. Later a financial aid counselor called me as well just to explain the process. That was a lot of information to remember in a short conversation. Luckily she sent me an email with the info as well so that was useful. We spent the later of the day just playing around with Leah.
Currently Cristy took off to Rosie’s, her aunt/mother, house to meet her other aunt that came in from town. I stayed home partially because I wanted to write this blog other because my stomach hurts. No toilet is better than your own.

This is my lil girl Leah. She is already walking everywhere now. She gets into everything and loves to make a mess in my room. I love this lil girl so much!

This is my beautful wife Cristy. I dont know what I would ever do if I did not have her. She has helped me though the worst of times and though the best of times. I love her to death.

Social Development

Has anyone wondered or pondered the stages of social development in a person? I know there books and articles etc…. on this subject but that saying, “when you are older you will understand.” That question leaves me thinking at what point at what specific time does that change take place? What needs to happen for the change or growth you may call it, to occur?

What Happens Now?

Seems I’ve come to a point in my life were I’m like literally “what the fuck happens now?” I went from a married, divorced, married, and now a father. Looking back I’ve had a significant change every year the past four years. Now that I’m a father what happens next? I can’t wait for the memories I’ll acquire as a growing family. What happens next when all the kids are moved out and its just Cristy and I? I’ll tell you one thing I refuse to become the old people that just stay at home talking about how much fun they had in the past. I’d much prefer to be the old people that talk about how much fun they are happening now.
Now here is the point I get stuck. I know what I want the overall outcome to be, but how am I going to go about achieving that? Shall I work my ass off till it is six feet under?